I have come to the realization that my mother resents my happiness. A few days ago I had to go to a government office and while I was there I broke down because of everything that has been going on in my life. The lady was really nice and ended up buying me lunch at Sonic. She even made sure I was seen that day. (I went without an appointment and was put on standby but she pulled some strings and got me seen.)

Well I let my mother pick me up. When I got in the car she took one look at the cup in my hands and started to yell. I thought you had no money what the hell are you doing spending it on fast food? Not even a hi how did it go. No I had something nice and she wanted to know why.

It really shouldn't have suprised me at all. She has done this many times in the past. Once at a movie theatre I got sick durring the movie so I went and got a soda. To this day she doesn't believe me that I got sick. All she cared about was the fact that I spent money on a soda at a movie theatre.

I think I'm going to take another nice long break from her.

I do have some good news. I have been talking to this guy for a while and he offered to buy me a plane ticket to come visit him. I am moving hell and earth so I can go. I NEED to get the hell out of Arizona or I will really need to go to the funny farm. I just don't know how much more I can take.