Father - A Poem

Fear of becoming close to anyone
Anger for a childhood I will never have
Resentment that you did not care
Depression that seeps into my very soul
These are the life tools you have left me

A boy is what you wanted
A girl is what you recieved
I am blameless for this
However you teat me as if I had a choice

When you look upon me
I see hatred in your eyes
It cuts to my very soul
As if someone has ripped me in two

When we talked
We never said what mattered
Too many things were left undone
Too many things were left unsaid

You loved me when I shown bright
Yet you took every chance to steal my light
Did you ever hear me cry
Did you even care

Why did you run from me
All I wanted was your love
Did you ever look back and cry
You were the one who decided to leave

Time has gone away from us
The years we have lost
We will never get back
For I fear you are gone forever