Mother - A Poem

Mother why do you revel when I cry
Would you rather I lay down and die
You tell me you love me
With the next breath you tell me you hate me

You blame me for all your problems
I did not ask you to birth me
You blame my father for all my sorrows
Yet you take every chance to hurt me

You say you do it because you love me
I say you do it becasue you are sick
You scoff at this
Then you tell me I'm crazy

I try to show you who I am
You verbaly smack me for it
You shout horrible things at me
I lay and cry in my bed

I am the unseen
Walking past you
The wind that caresses your face
The branch that clings to you
I cry out
No one hears me

My mouth may smile
But the light inside my soul fades
Look in my eyes
The evidence is there

Masks hide me from the world
My heart sighs a dull ache
Emptyness surrounds me
Even when the room is full of people

I walk through the darkness
Though the light shines bright
I scream
No one hears me

I say hello
You look right through me
I cross the street
You try to hit me

I blow smoke in your face
It never phases you
I hold out my hand
You smack it away

I feel caged
You feel free
I am beautiful inside
You only see my outside

I cry
You laugh
I smile
You grimace

I sit home and cry
You never see a tear
I am human with feelings
You don't care

I just want to disapear.